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You may be surprised, but a lot of people send me videos.

I want them to send me photos of cute people that they have met who are wearing helmets, but no – they mainly send me videos. Sometimes they send shy/nice emails and often they include a video.

Sometimes they send me funny videos, of mean people teasing hipsters in rap. Other times, extra fancy hipsters doing things for Rapha. Sometimes they are videos that I have already seen, sometimes they are new. I don’t know if I should also repost these videos but sometimes I do. Sometimes I don’t because I believe that I am a pretty slow news service and it feels dorky to come in so late on things that have already gone viral, found antidotes and become benign already.

I’m going to take a blog break, it’s a long weekend here in Sunny Queensland, so time for some time off. And I always find it hard to write in this funny/neutral/silly tone when really I am feeling strangely disconnected, sad or downright depressed.

So let me leave you with this video, which is still my very favourite thing to watch sometimes when I am feeling down.

This man looks natural on a bike. This man makes my skin sing when I watch this clip. I wonder what it must be like to do something like this, something so natural and perfect and difficult and laboured and hard and futile and beautiful and perfect. And to do it so well.

There is nothing that I do so well in my life that it could inspire the strange feeling of awe, of lonely, reverential wonder. I have friends who are classically trained opera singers, talented artists, amazing photographers, and they all do something similar for me – inspire this quiet smile.

But this is bikes, so I like it best.

See you when I see you.

I think I might surface somewhere around 14 May. There’s a full moon scheduled.

Wanna see some photos?

Or ride some long way in the night?

This is hardcore

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You could be forgiven for thinking I mean the Australian cycle messenger championships. I could – but I don’t. Full props to Gypsy for taking out the title and for all who kindly washed the scabs of the messengers who went down in Saturday’s binfest.

I was only there for the peripherals and – for my mind at least – the endurance element seemed both on and off race. Holy crap. I’m wrecked and I only heard about what went on. And as fun as I’m sure it all was, there’s nothing that exciting that i can share with you all about it – I wasn’t there! The anecdotes alone exhausted me.

Nah, for me – this is hard core.

Desrae Cameron.

I gladly accepted Andrew’s invite to meet for post ride coffee (though not for keeping to the clip with their rude to Sandgate, opting instead for a lazy roll about the river, revelling the unfogging of an ACMC-encouraged hangover). I’m always keen to meet new Lycra and chat with its owners.

The morning was light and breezy so it cleared the webs ably.

And then there was Desi.

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Check out this profile on the balmoral club site.

(http://www.balmoralmasterswomen.com.au/profiles.htm)

Desi has given my morning a total buzz because – no shit – she’s almost sixty and, having taken up riding only recently (like the last few years only) – she is obviously smashing it. Sammy Sanchez style.

With a sweet ladies Orbea, an absolutely up for it attitude, Desi proves that my idea of sixty is complete rubbish. Touring bike holidays with stops for jam and scones? Yeah, why not, but then again you could also pick up after a marriage ending and decide to take up track cycling of all the random things, scoring yourself some sweet rainbow colours on your way.

No retreat, no surrender.

She’s shifted focus lately to road racing from track, setting up her world champs track bike as a street ride. Cue white bars with green grips and I believe that Desi may be the coolest sixty-year old I’ve ever met.

Is it too early to start my campaign to have her at the next rollers?

Never too early I don’t think.

Ps I rarely post from my phone because it’s really slow and hard to get it together on the links etc. Apologies for the stilted writing style – this art gallery is going mental.

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Because I am not a sponsored rider, I am not under any obligation to write anything or do anything that does not strike me as fun to do. This is a very liberating position. For this, I can just enjoy a lovely day in the sun, ferreting back and forth between my house, my ADHD and the bike polo. The Australian Cycle Messenger somethings can just toodle along around me, but I am lollygagging for new people and new things. I love to share silly things with you, but some things are mine alone.

The view across the Story Bridge, wet from a sudden storm, a couple nice riders along beside. Another not far behind, hopefully to be found.

I see Josh, Andrew and Isaac and they seem really nice. I believe that when the sun is out, they like to cut long swathes through Musgrave Park.

I can get wet in the rain for the briefest of Alley Cat experiences, and really – it can just be a nice day with a few new people that I’m enjoying meeting and riding with and hanging out.

Among the other things which are mine alone, are the indescribable things; Zoe mainly.

She likes to ride bikes.

Similarly to Andrew, Zoe is capable of giving me great quiet.

With few others would I feel comfortable enough to share a nap after a long morning, after an acidic night, after a wet evening, after a sunny day.

How ironic that you won’t know that I really really really bad ass mega molto crazy noodle hard core beacon beacon love you think you’re wonderful kind gorgeous listening nice kindly friendly wonderful fragile beautiful wonderful friendly friendly until we can do nothing at all wander down to the market, pick up a Blackstar ice coffee, some fresh vegetables, then flake for the afternoon.

And I know no one who could inspire not one but two dancing videos. Only for Zoe would I give myself headbanger’s regret. Oh, and maybe Andie.

If DJ TJ ever releases permission to show the wildest best helmet dancing video ever. You’ll get to see the other one.

Remember, there’s no shame in loving your friends so much you’d embarrass yourself wildly just to give them a laugh.

how to get a cycling sponsorship

Earlier in the year, Cycling Tips posted an interesting post about how to get a cycling sponsorship. I read this blog because it makes me feel like a proper cyclist, although I do not particularly think that these posts are actually written with me in mind. I just like helmets and quite enjoy the pre-race build up for the major classics and the tours etc. It makes it less confusing when Phil is talking about something if I have read Wade’s posts in advance. He likes professional cycling an awful lot, and I like professional cycling sort of enough. And he has nice photos which I often re-post. He writes well, but again, I’m not the audience in mind.

So, with regards to sponsorship, I did not really hold much weight in the information contained within. Mainly because I am not looking to be sponsored, and the whole ordeal is clearly targeted at people who are good enough at riding to warrant this.

But I was joking, or maybe he was joking, this morning with Andrew Demack from Bicycle Queensland about his Epic Cycles jersey, some sort of off hand, sponsored rider kind of giggle (note, he is not officially “sponsored”), like hahaha jersey sponsor you Epic etc. Purple is, after all, everyone’s colour.

But it set me to thinking, about the other meanings of the word “sponsor” and I hope at least for Easter that people will forgive me my introspective bent. In Filipino-Catholic land (that strange, quiet country from which one never returns), it is very important to have a sponsor at your baptism. These are people who answer for the infant (because clearly you cannot talk at this stage) and they kind of pledge to assume responsibility for your spiritual upbringing. And more broadly, a “sponsor” is so much more than just someone or some company providing the finances to advertise a product on you while you do sport – it is also used to describe a person who will vouch for you, who will, on the basis of their esteem for you and your good character stake their name on your name.

So, in effect, Andrew is – for my idiosyncratic categories at least – a sponsored rider. For he came with the highest recommendations, considered and salutary remarks from a person whose opinion I believe to be sound and measured which said to me at least, that this was a rider of regard. For those of you with access to Google, you may discover that Andrew is an active member of the Queensland cycling community. He is 35th most winning of men of a certain age in some riding. You may continue to search these things and learn more about cycling, advocacy, Bicycle Queensland and the local view of life between the road, the coffee shop and the greater journey.

But what of his helmet? Catlike. Meow. All good. You know how I feel about such things. Let us not get off message.

Making this morning’s ride for me was kind of hard because, in a bout of bad mood, I had gone for a long ride  (for me anyway) the night before with the sponsors. The Mexican helped/didn’t help, I had major light envy (but piggy backed off the Kind Katherine for lighting support) and almost found night rhythm enough to recalibrate. But in the end, I didn’t get home til late, I didn’t sleep well, and I felt almost frightened when I pulled up at the BQ headquarters at some hours of early. It was very early. And his bike had gears.

Being an internet superstar, I obviously need to get my beauty sleep.*

What followed for the next couple of hours after that is kind of hard to describe. I mean, at one level, nothing much out of the ordinary went on. Andrew and I went for a ride, covering some of the same territory as last night (both conversationally and literally) and then we had a coffee. Just two lyrca buddies out for a good time.

Yet at the same time, what was also happening, was something different and lovely and purposeful. I don’t think that is very fair or even very possible to describe the mass of eclectic, banal, civic, important, educational, philosophical, personal, quiet, casual, and unrelated topics covered/half-covered in this morning’s ride.

There were some interesting counterpoints to last night’s ride – not least of all to actually see the scenery that I had only guessed at in the previous evening’s cool, torch-lit arrangements.

Last night was last night. The was a huge, rabbit-filled moon.

And this morning was this morning.

Both were wonderful rides – but as is the inevitable feeling with riding at night, there was a coolness of perspective, a darkness of mood, and a quiet of thinking.

This morning, however, was the day. And sometimes, when you are up at daybreak and riding with a person that you do not know so very well, there is a lot going on. There is an explosion of colour, a panoply of thoughts, and lots of surprises.

It’s weird for me to feel lost for words, but I am right now. It’s why there’s so much run up in this post, and so little leap.  Despite being an almighty chatterbox, I do occasionally feel struck by things and then thoughts.

Riding this morning with Andrew has made me feel rather quiet.

This may sound like damning with faint praise, but it’s quite the opposite.

I’ll just say one thing. If I one day have kids, and one of those kids turns out to be a boy, and then grows up to be a man, and that man is half as thoughtful and warm, with some measure of the genuine integrity that I felt from meeting Andrew in even such a short ride’s worth of time, then I would be very proud to meet that man who is a bit like Andrew who may be my son in some imaginary world in some other time.

Happy Easter cats. See you tomorrow at the Alley? I hear that Zoe is coming…

*Nice work Andy.

I love when worlds collide

Because sometimes beauty and poetry mix. Fern seems a beautiful poet, musician, anthropologist and I believe person. She has one of those goodness shines out of you kind of auras*. She also has a helmet. I actually have a playlist on my computer titled – Things for Fern. Which are now redundant. For a whole range of reasons, which I will explain in my other life. So I seem to have less reason to send her the recording of Gwendolyn Brooks Song in the Front Yard. She might one day want to be a bad woman too though, so perhaps I’ll send it anyway.

But her humble (borrowed) helmet, seemed so very fitting, kind of a mossy green – set against the wet, swaying bamboo of Bulimba’s Riverbend Books (thanks to Emma – I was able to actually find Bulimba!) it just seemed perfect to me. I don’t wear a skate helmet any more, because it was just too hot, but there is something simple and honest about them, and the greater surface area means you can always make it your own. I have about a hundred Knog stickers, which could go on my helmet if I was so inclined. But I’m not right now.

Sometimes, I try very hard to keep these lives separate. Sometimes a lot I do. For a while there, I was very worried that I needed to keep all the separate parts of me separate so that I could make sense of them. Now I am not sure if that is wise. Although I beginning to wonder if you want to spend all your time with someone who shares your exact ratio of interest between bikes, books, baked goods, poetry, pestilence, poverty and soave – you’re pretty much going out with yourself.

What all this (Fern, her great mossy green lid, my failed playlist, and stickers) reminds me of, is that you must always do what needs to be done when it needs to be done. Or do what you want to do when you want to do it. Or something similar.

Seizing. Moment. Day. Ready. Go. Life. Live.

Someone I know may have just lost all their photos (years of digital photos that is); this can only be described as a tragedy. Having once lost all my photos (years of physical photos – which they have also lost, lots of loss here), I have to reassure you that when things like this are lost you indeed lose something. Actually, you should remind yourself occasionally when you are griping about what you have lost, of just how much was lost that other time when you lost all your photographs so that you can put things into perspective.

More pertinently, you should also consider your safety when you are riding (oooh – I had a really, really considered email question come in the other week and I just remembered that I FORGOT TO ANSWER, I will come back to this, I promise). Because what if you lose more than your photos?

Hmm. It is getting late. I am getting strange. Let’s hold back.

I just mean that life feels precious.

What if this is the moment when it starts?

My friend John wants to know – all the way from England – what this Rollers thing is. I shall illuminate him! How wonderful to have readers from so very far away… who care so very much about such strangely small things.

*I cannot actually see auras. Promise.